#IWSG: I can only be me

It’s that the first Wednesday in the month again, which means Insecure Writer’s Support Group Wednesday. Thanks to our noble Ninja Captain Alex J Cavanaugh, it’s time to share our fears and insecurities, or support and assistance. Doesn’t matter which.

If you’d like to join, click here.

Be sure to link to this page and display the badge in your post.

Our hashtag is #IWSG


No, no, no! I’m not ready for it to be the first Wednesday of the month, because I’m too insecure to write about being insecure.

Or maybe I just have the winter blues and need to take another long walk through the woods. A bit of all of the above, I suspect.

Last time, I talked about my insecurities for my then upcoming book, Bend, Don’t Break. This month, I’m happy to report that my freaking out was useless. There were some readers who were disappointed because it wasn’t as dark as the first book, because it had a different feel from the first book, or because my hero and heroin were separated for the first big chunk…. there’s always something.

However, there was also a large chunk who liked it better than the first book and many who liked them equally. Overall that’s a total win! Will it keep me from freaking out about the next book? Oh, I suspect not, but it goes to show yet again, that you’ll never please everyone and all you can do is follow your gut.

I’m supposedly taking this month off, but for me that means I’m not setting any hard deadlines (except maybe getting everything ready for taxes, which I’m sure will be awesome :/ ). Instead, I want to try to focus on being more sociable–possibly the most terrifying part of any project when you have social anxiety.

So, hello world! I’m trying to get to know you better. 🙂 

It’s easy writing characters and their conversations and reactions, but when it’s me on the line and real people interactions…. yeah, not so much. I have no idea what to say, how to start a conversation, or where to go after the conversation begins. I’m sure I’m not the only socially awkward person out there–where are you fellow anxious people?

Okay, I think that’s enough yammering on for one month. I’ll see you all on your blogs and in the comments. 🙂

IWSG: It has been a while

It’s that the first Wednesday in the month again, which means Insecure Writer’s Support Group Wednesday. Thanks to our noble Ninja Captain Alex J Cavanaugh, it’s time to share our fears and insecurities, or support and assistance. Doesn’t matter which.
If you’d like to join, click here.

Be sure to link to this page and display the badge in your post.

Our hashtag is #IWSG


It seems lie it has been months since I’ve put together a good personal blog post, but honestly the last few months have run together in my head to the point that it has all gone to mush.

So, a brief update…

In July, I released my first big selling book–as in the first book to not only meet, but exceed what I was making at the day job. And then, I made a huge leap of faith by quitting my day job and writing full time at the end of August. Since then I’ve added two more books to my line up–one was released in October, Beyond the Divide, and one to be released this month, Bend, Don’t Break.

That’ll make five books total since I started publishing, and I’m still edge of my seat, scared out of my mind at every step.

With the paranormal books, it’s not as bad, because those aren’t yet my big sellers, and that’s more my fun, lower stress, play time. I enjoy writing the romance just as much, but there’s more pressure there, since right now that’s my livelihood.

1554564_349710801876682_8884827937288544184_nIn September, Irrevocable became a bestseller on Amazon (peaking at 27 overall) and Barnes & Noble (peaking at 6 overall), and it was the most astonishing experience of my career. I laughed and cried, and everything in between. And now I come down to releasing the sequel, Bend, Don’t Break, and it’s utterly terrifying. I think the second book is exponentially more intimidating than the first because you go into it knowing that readers are going to have preconceived notions and expectations after reading the first book and getting to know the characters.

And it’s all exacerbated since the second book feels so different from the first book–a different character’s POV and very different circumstances that aren’t as gritty or dark as the original. I let it get to me for a while, but then I sat down, knowing that I had to write the story that my character had to tell. And after letting go of my own preconceived notions, I ended up with a story that I love, and after all the fretting, the advance readers so far are enjoying it as well.

What I’ve learned…

  1. Trying to force a story in a box will simply leave me banging my head against a desk–I have to go where the characters go.
  2. No matter how much I love and believe in my story, sitting around and waiting to see how it will be received will probably always drive me crazy.

But there’s only one writer I can be. I can improve the craft and learn new things, but I’ll still be me–and I love that.

IWSG: Focusing on the Good

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I can’t believe it’s October! And if I can’t keep up with the months, well forget about me keeping up with what day of the week it is. I only remembered IWSG because I saw someone else’s post on Google.

I’m buried in edits, recruiting for my release day blitz, writing blog tour posts and recruiting for a November blog tour (all while also working a day job). So, what am I not insecure about right now?

I’ll just be happy to make it through the week, send off my MS again and figure out what I need to do next.

Let’s focus on the good things:

    • I have some great writing friends who are always around when I need a sounding board or help in any way. I have to say the writers I’ve connected with are some of the best people in the world.
    • My ferrets still love me, even though Cam and I got into a battle the other day and he nipped my hand pretty good.
    • My hubby is helping in every way he can.
    • So far, beta readers have loved the story, and their comments have been encouraging–even though they’ve also inspired some *facepalm* moments.

So, what are the best things in your writing life right now?

IWSG: What? It’s Wednesday?

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This is my first time participating in the Insecure Writer’s Support Group and I nearly forgot what day it was. I’ll blame the short week created by holiday Monday and get on with it.

My insecurity is getting this rewrite done and off to the editor while managing not to get a divorce. My husband is unbelievably supportive most of the time, but recently the stress has been getting to us both and we’ve been blowing up at each other for no apparent reason.

And that only serves to stress me out more.

Anyone else have this problem? Advice for getting my debut book out without going insane?